Odd Sounds…

Last Monday, I woke up... everything was pretty normal. I took a shower, got dressed, and grabbed my Cochlear implant... I walked down the hallway, got the battery, plugged it in, turned it on... attached it to my head... and then I heard this HUGE MASSIVE TREMENDOUS ROARING sound that almost floored me. I thought I was in the midst of a nuclear explosion, or a helicopter was hovering over my house. My eyes bugged out as I looked around trying to ascertain the source of this HUGE sound... then I realized... that's…Read more …

Continuing odyssey of sensory warp

Before I was implanted with a Cochlear, for me, I asked myself a simple question: Am I ready to be deaf? Not just sorta deaf, but completely deaf? And I found myself just stating that it was "get busy hearing, or get busy being deaf". Not many people really drew a line there, because no one really understood what I could or could not hear. My parents always assumed i heard MUCH more than I did... close friends sometimes had the same issue. Then family would sometimes just talk to my mom and…Read more …

Cochlear Lessons

Music is still not working well for me. Some I can hear, but I'm mostly pissed because nothing sounds the way it did. Pink Floyd is mostly a muddle to me. MCB is just random noises. Primus is workable, but nothing like it was. Van Halen is just screeching. Chapstik, just sounds like brakes exploding repeatedly. It's weird. So as far as music goes, my memory is my enemy right now. I realized something... deep thoughts alert! The more I can engage in conversations, the more I realize there's a responsibility that goes…Read more …

Captioning in Theaters

I was very surprised to find the local AMC Livonia has deployed a very nice closed captioning system for most of their screens. On Friday, we went to see The Hobbit, but the system was broke (so we saw The Hobbit for FREE!) Saturday, we went to see Lincoln, and the captioning did work for that screen. The technology is called Doremi Captiview (http://www.doremilabs.com/products/cinema-products/captiview/) and it worked fairly well. It had some signal issues, but otherwise, I was able tof ollow a very wordy movie that would have been useless to me without.…Read more …

The Cyborg Cometh…

Guess I haven't written anything in awhile. I think I wanted to just have some great big, awesome thing to say... and the closest I can come to that is: I can hear. Yep. The Processor for the Cochlear WORKED. I can hear. And good lord, what the hell am I hearing? This is a really loud world you folks have here... how the heck haven't you all lost your minds already? I'm hearing stuff that makes no real sense to me.. and realizing how much of the world of sound I missed...…Read more …

Side Effects

I think I'm experiencing emotional side effects of everything that has happened these last few months. I found myself very angry, snippy, and probably way too rough for no real reason today. I took it out on someone else, alas. It's too late to subtract the words. I think the question I forgot is this: Did you do it for a good? Were your goals good? I think they were. So tomorrow, I have a meeting, and I'll apologize for being a snippy, grumpster...I hate losing control. I have all these excuses to…Read more …

Almost Cyborg

Well, I am almost there as far as being cyborg. The Cochlear Nucleus 5 has been implanted into the right side of my skull. First off, I'll say this: If they tell you this surgery is "easy"... smack em down. Hard. It is not easy. I am now 1 week post surgery, and still suffering pain in the right side of my head. The surgery itself was horrendous. It is NOT minor surgery. It is a horrid joke that the surgery is treated as outpatient. My ass should have been resting in a…Read more …

Amalgamate Now?

Sometimes in your life, there are spans of time when the definition of your life is writ large, across the face of reality like graffiti. Everyone within eye sight, ear shot, a tongue flick can see, smell and taste everything that is about to happen... and have no idea what it feels like. At this moment, my life is a storage closet of chaos. Life without definition, but full of cluster, sound and fury. I just spent a half hour researching Cochlear Implants. I read someone elses blog on this process and broke…Read more …