Side Effects

I think I'm experiencing emotional side effects of everything that has happened these last few months. I found myself very angry, snippy, and probably way too rough for no real reason today. I took it out on someone else, alas. It's too late to subtract the words. I think the question I forgot is this: Did you do it for a good? Were your goals good? I think they were. So tomorrow, I have a meeting, and I'll apologize for being a snippy, grumpster...I hate losing control. I have all these excuses to…Read more …

I miss…

I've now gone over a month without hearing much of anything, which seems like an excellent time to reflect on sounds I miss... I miss voices. Real voices. Not the ones my mind makes up. I miss the sound of running water. Faucets. Creeks. Waves on the shore. I miss the sound of my nephew's laughter and giggles. I miss music. A soundtrack other than my own. I miss the aural squinting of trying to hear what you're saying. August 6th, I get evaluated for a cochlear implant. I'm kinda hoping they say…Read more …

How much can I take?

So, I'm still working on the healing thing. My Doctor tells me I can put 100% weight on by July 5th (my next appointment). I'll be at 75% this Tuesday... I need to get back home by June 30th or my cat will starve. Can I climb the stairs? Yeah. But it's real slow.Is it safe? Not really, no. It's clumsy. There's no way I can do stuff like carry in groceries and such. Maybe i'll just have to go home for lunch and feed the cat? It could work. I'm returning the…Read more …

Pondering a new Normalcy

Beware: this post shall wander aimlessly... I think I may be suffering some kind of PTSD associated with my broken leg. Example: while watching a movie tonight, my eye was caught by my cat, Fargo, who was on the floor in front of me. A cat toy (grey, made of rubber) was caught on his nail. But when I looked down, it looked like he was flapping a broken leg in the air. I screeched out "Holy shit, Fargo's leg is broken!". He was flapping the cat toy, which was stuck to his…Read more …