Doesn’t Really Matter

Guess it really doesn't matter cause nobody is coming to my rescue I can do whatever difference time difference place all ends up the same way The sun rises and shadows cast there's some play the shadows dance words are cast and doubt aghast A pleasant interlude merely a way to make you doubt all before and all yet about to cast it's play unto the game my anger is blamed Guess it really doesn't matter cause nobody is coming to my rescue I can do whatever difference time difference place all ends…Read more …

What I would give

What I would give to be a real human boy the automation I have become is full of lust for just one to feel something again to release all held within to fear to cry to love to imagine beyond the lines What I would give to be a real human boy full of fear and loathe to lie to cheat to steal to feel something again to hold it all within of old age  to quicken of death and taxes to spend What I would give to be a real human boy…Read more …

Scribbled on a Pad

"I Love You" is just a fleeting lie. I hate that this thought passed before my mind." "What did I ever do to lose you? All I ever did was dare to love you" Reckless Abandonment Hurts. All i feel for you can be summarized in a kiss and then some Believe in us. Through the darkest of times my thoughts are of you and how you are doing my own pain is nothing compared to my worries for you. I cry because we lost our love. Find Me I'm still in Love…Read more …

Sense to me

It was easier to dream in rhyme when I was sad and confused now I dream of being with you the words are harder to come to happiness dims creativity yet if I'm left with you that's fine with me so my output begins to dim and everything I ever said makes no sense to me pain and sorrow spill freely drowned and bleeding are just as easily described in flowery phrases but happiness is dull and grey my words they seem to be dark and sated absent the hunger it's not a…Read more …

Faith

I know right from wrong good and evil are just words the source of my wisdom is on this earth don't need cosmic phases nor flowery phrases but I still stare at you in the sky my words are provactively fine dare you answer my flippant cries dare you ignore as I begin to fly leapt from the ground and tasted the sky same as the dirt on the ground, good bye my last, said I please bury my heart somewhere up amongst the clouds and let me seed the stars profound and…Read more …

Poetry – Here It Is

Here it is, it's all I got left my heart and soul burning and Godless broken and blind deaf and dumb barely pond scum how's that for a sum? An equation unbalanced in a world of conquest an ego or an id a fantasy or just a dream tasteless and baseless accusations of complications hardly worth whispering how that for a scene? Here it is, it's all I got left I gave it all away before they even came to make my life the same carbon copy what a shame if only it…Read more …

Poem – I Know Why

My absent minded fact finded barely hiding mind of mine oh sure it's fine but maybe I should hide what thoughts dance inside cause the volume and meanings the quantity and quality may be far too frightful for sharing Mass consumption of all the marbles rattling around in this pumpkin would really be something but I fear the lumping would result in klumping of brains that sound like an empty thumping I'm not all that wise nor all that good looking but I'm smarter than your average guy walking along staring at the…Read more …

Poem – Died a Long Time Ago – Wise Men

I should have died a long time ago cause I never knew where to go my wanderings were without aim targetless flight unto the waves did I cast my stern to sway As my eyes scan the horizon I spot the shiny wise men when finally I find them they're barely aware of why then except the wine must flow I begged them to remember something but all they recall is broken trumpets sounding a fractured call to all it's time to go there but where the wise men do not know even…Read more …